well.. yesterday was one of my not so good days . this was because...
I was expecting to meet my crush and 2 of my friends out for a movie 'date' but then when we arrived there.. turned out he lied to me and eventually it turned out into a Christian group outing. and the thing is I didn't know any one of them cause there were like 3 pretty girls and 1 guy urh ..
just imagine how I feel. I felt so insecure though. I felt so ugly like fucking ugly haish... so me and my friend went off to eat.. and as we started to eat. I was controlling my tears. I just broke down hais. I guess it was because I was excited to see him I was nervous at that time but excited too .. I was disappointed literally
so the day went pass, and we only managed to talk to each other for less than 5 sentences.. maybe its not even considered sentences!!! just typing this down makes me so unhappy and makes me want to cry .
well... I didn't dare to tell my best friend, wei ting because she might think im stupid or maybe because among the 3 pretty girls she was one of them ..
SHOCKER.
I was jealous you see. maybe im not one of the prettiest one to him.. I just really want him to look at me and be like WOW. although he looked at me a couple of times during the movie but still I wasn't happy . I was faking my laughter all the time I couldn't smile properly
so yeap ..after I sent wei ting off to meet her friend and go home I went to the arcade and started to vent my anger on cars and playing those smash the gnome thingy... then I won 2 cups from a game... shocker.. ikr
after that I went home... i was thinking: im going to change. i want to transform to someone else .
and yep! that's exactly what i did . i went to the salon i asked her to trim my hair and its not a trim it was a freaking SHORT TRIM. but im like heck yeah ( if it was the last time me , i will be crying by now ) and then i asked her to do something to my fringe that i will never regret..
as you can see, I cut longer fringe on the sides of my face and cut my fringe shorter than before
yep!! that's all for today (: tmrw's sch = YUCK
TOODLES!!!~~
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